Nova – What was the hardest part about coming home?

It was actually harder than being in the rehab place, in the rehab facility because in rehab everyone around you is dealing with the same thing you’re dealing with. Plus every time you make a move, if you have trouble with it, there’s help. I walk into this house where I would have 50 people over for Thanksgiving, and do all the cooking and do all the cleaning. And I love—my home was everything for me and my family and loved ones. I looked at the floor, and I couldn’t scrub it on my hands and knees, and I loved to do those things, that was my working out. It was so hard for me to accept the fact that I couldn’t—I used to cook all day on Sundays for the week and I couldn’t do that. So learning how to be in my home feeling like I was caring for it was the hardest part. Everybody talks about going home as if it’s the end-all-be-all to your joy, and it’s probably the hardest depression that you deal with because nobody talks about that before you go home.